by Rick Hempy
“I got these lines in my face tryin’ to straighten out the wrinkles in my life” - Ramblin’ Jack Elliott
Once again, I’ve been less than diligent in contributing. I have been keeping up though... with the thread, with the direction, with the tapestry. Jo challenged us, early on, to create a masterpiece. Well, it’s coming together nicely from where I sit.
It has been a true pleasure to reconnect with you all, and a great joy to gain some insight into who you are now, some forty years later. Many of your posts have been spot-on, dealing with issues of diversity, acceptance, respect.
Personally, I’ve been working hard on the tolerance thing for some time now... understanding that not everyone in the world sees things quite the same as I. In fact, I doubt there are many at all, and that’s probably a good thing. It seems to be a concept all of us feel is important, as it’s gotten considerable attention, in one form or another, here in Smiling Heart. As Jo pointed out earlier, it’s a lot easier to talk about than to practice. That’s the part I am still working on..., a work in progress.
Recently, I realized something else I needed to add to the list. That would be forgiveness. I’m not good at multi-tasking, (what with the brain damage and all), and I figured trying to be tolerant was enough for anyone, but this thing wasn’t going away... this forgiveness thing.
I had a face-to-face confrontation, (both faces being mine), last weekend, over some bad shit that went down almost forty years ago. I had a realization... an epiphany. I love epiphanies, (I'm quoting Reya here). I even wrote a song about one. This particular epiphany was about coming to understand that I needed forgiveness... and not from those I had terribly wronged back in the day. They had forgiven me long ago. I needed to forgive myself.
They say confession is good for the soul. I know the Catholic religion puts a lot of stock in the notion. That may well be, but when you’re done confessing, don’t forget to forgive yourself. It’s amazing how much easier it is to forgive others once that’s done.
I thought it appropriate to wait until Sunday to post this, since it all sounds a bit "preachy". Purely unintentional. It's really more a personal thing, but like I said, the dog ate my blog, and I had to think of something, so... forgive me.
Love from the heart,