Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Delicious Ambiguity

"I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious Ambiguity."

- Gilda Radner

Circle Limit - M.C. Escher

What an amazing way to look at the changes presented to us in our lives. To think that Gilda was able to articulate this idea so beautifully as she was immersed so suddenly and deeply into the treacherous waters of cancer is a testament to her shining soul.

Sometimes welcome, sometimes despised, Change comes. It can stalk us for days or weeks, or it can assault us suddenly. It may be heralded by great joy, or preceded by angry tears.  Still, it comes, uncaring and even completely unaware of our personal needs or desires.

Change comes. We cannot control it, we cannot avoid it. We can only hope to experience each moment as a sort of delicious ambiguity.

Our beautiful Young Man will soon be released from his tethers to this world. This is the most unwelcome of changes to all of us who love him so dearly. The only ambiguity is in knowing how truly delicious it will be for him to breathe free for eternity.


  1. What a beautiful post. Brought a tear to my eye, certainly.

    I loved Gilda. She was a force of nature; now she is one of the Mighty Dead.

  2. Your post is so poignant; so true. Change does come and like many people we knew the final Change comes before we are ready to lose them. Like Reya, I loved Gilda and she had to leave way to early.
    The video is perfect; so happy & so sad. I am sorry that your Young Man will soon end his Earthly existence. Kyrie eleison, my friend.

  3. What a beautiful tribute to Josh. How heartbreaking to see so many young die before they have begun to live their lives. Brings the past with so many sorrows and sadness...

    Love Gilda and sending love your way in the coming days.

    xo Kyrie eleison

  4. When Barry passed away, my first words were, "The cancer is dead, but Barry will live on in our hearts." The main point was his suffering was over.

    Josh has had enough procedures too. He doesn't want anymore. Now he can fly away freely and breathe in all the air in the atmosphere if he wants..... without restriction. Good bye dear one.

    I am sending prayers for continued strength, for family support and love. xoxoxo

  5. jo this is a beautiful post. i feel so sad when people fly away and especially when in many respects they still have so much to do. i send my love to your family. steven

  6. A beautiful tribute to your nephew, Jo. The video is very moving, such a beautiful smile Josh has. Very sad for us when young souls must leave this world. Love to you and your family.

    Gilda was the best - and I had several Escher prints on my dorm room wall in college!

    Kathy Goddard

  7. Such a sad post. My hearts go out to your family.
    The only redeeming feature is that his suffering is over and he is now free.
    In sadness and sending much love

  8. Jo, everyone's responses are so touching. All I can add is my hope that your family will bask in the light that their Young Man will surely leave behind. Love to you.

  9. Thank you all for your very kind words. It helps. It really does help.


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